I've had some really good days this past week. I was feeling so much better and so fulfilled in my duties that I was full of joy. They were such good days. :-)
Yesterday, I walked to main street to mail some stuff to my sisters and get some necessities. I felt ok until I got back into the house and started coughing. I literally thought my lungs were coming up too. Lol. And I couldn't do anything to stop it. I just had to sit and let it pass. In that time, all my fears were flung back into my face and I had to do some thinking.
How easy it is to trust in God's will when I'm feeling great and life is beautiful.
Just as God has a purpose for granting us those times full of light and joy, so He has a purpose in the times I fear and doubt. I trust in Him to be all I will need, this moment. This moment is forever. I know, I've said it a million times before, but I needed this today. :-)
But though he cause grief, yet will he have compassion according to the multitude of his mercies. For he doth not afflict willingly nor grieve the children of men... (Lamentations 3)
I can be happy today. Or I could huddle in my chair and listen to my fears. I could trust today. Or I could ask God 'Why?'. I could be a light today. Or I could hide away and let someone else do the shining. But when I'm looking into His face, how can I fear with such compassion and love shining down on me?