Tuesday, March 8, 2011

let me be glad

I am sick and miserable. I ache and shiver. Everything hurts. God, what are you doing?? I don't want to skip anymore work! And what about teaching? I feel so weak and tired. My head hurts and I can't even form a proper thought process. I wish Jesse were here. I wish I was feeling well and on top of the world. I hate my weak body. I hate my weak mind. I am scared of getting pneumonia again. I'm scared stiff...! 

Wait a minute.

::rereads::

That doesn't sound like the me I want to be at all. That sounds like a discouraged, whimpering human being who is being whupped by a petty illness. Ok. Maybe not petty. But it definitely isn't the worst by a long shot. Ok. So maybe it is a bit petty. Just a cold. Just a virus.

Come on, Naomi. Think of one thing to be thankful for.

God. 

Describe, Him, Naomi.

Always. Love. Forgive. Just. Faithful. How could I ever take my gaze from Him?

Think of another thing, Naomi.

Jesse. 

Truth. Courage. Wisdom. Human. Love. I have also forgotten the times with no you in them. 

Understanding co-workers and employer. 

Kind. Helpful. Honest. Doing their very best to like me. :-)

Lindsey: 

Always there for me. Brimming with love and helpfulness. What would I do without her? 

I am already feeling better. :-) I am blessed. I am so blessed. Fear is something that I do not have to greet. Peace and love and faith can be mine tonight.

Sweet dreams, readers. Goodnight!

6 comments:

Nila said...

Sorry you're feeling so miserable! Praying for God's strength and healing at this time. : )

Naomi said...

Thank you. This morning I am feeling much better... and I am going to venture out to work. :) We shall see what the day holds.

Bekah said...

Thanks, Naomi! :) You know how much I needed to hear this. :)

Naomi said...

Ah. You have no idea how much I needed to hear your comment. :) I had felt led to blog but was hesitant because I always get so dramatic when feeling tired and sick. :P Lol! I am so glad that my sporadic thoughts were some encouragement. :hugs:

Bekah said...

Your post was perfect for me...that's why God let you post it! *winks* *hugs back* (Oh and I have been trying to come up with a way to come to your wedding ceremony~ we are thinking perhaps we will go to Regina, then I will come solo to your wedding ceremony, that way I can do it in a day :D)

Samantha R. said...

Praying for you and praying that you won't get pneumonia! My brother just went through bronchitis; it's going around everywhere right now! I have a bit of a sore throat =/ but otherwise feel fine.
*hugs*
You are loved and blessed!